My parents' love , Only a few short years . After decades of fighting , Like an enemy .
- Know each other or not .
Both parents were born in 40 years .
Acquaintance , Conservative age , Only once with the same person , So it's also love at first sight in another sense .
Dad's radio station , Secondary school graduation . Mother is illiterate , jobless .
The first few years , It's sweet , Be deeply attached to each other .
- Try to have a son .
Shortly after marriage , My eldest sister was born . Then there are 5 individual , All girls . In those days , Most rural families have more children .
There are so many reasons , Nothing more than three o'clock .
First, my grandmother values boys over girls .
Second, in the countryside at that time , A son is much more valuable than a daughter , No son, no labor , Immovable land . And rural people humiliate a woman , The most vicious words are “ I can't even have a son ！”
Third, my father wants a son . Although he has culture , But the concept is very traditional . I think my daughters are going to get married , Without a son, you can't rely on your old age .
The more you can't have a son, the more you want to have . The more you are born, the poorer you are , The poorer, the more , A vicious cycle .
Until the family planning policy comes down , Forced ligation , Just stop .
- In order to survive , Beating and scolding constantly .
Before the fifth sister was born , The rural area has always been a work point system . The family is full of women , You can't earn a few points if you go out early and return late .
Dad works as an electrician , The salary is not high . So many people , Live on my father's salary , The family is in a difficult situation , stretched .
At that time, the Township radio station had the opportunity to pass the examination and promotion . Dad is always nervous before the exam , Failed to play well for several times in succession , Confidence and emotions are greatly affected , Start drinking away your worries .
Dad is a typical cultural person , Good face , Face thin .
Mom is just the opposite , It's Xiaoqiang who can't fight , Strong adaptability .
She was a fisherman's girl , Third in line at home . above 2 A brother , Head down 2 A sister . Every time my grandparents take my two uncles out fishing , Leave her to work at home , And take care of my sisters .
My brother and sister went to school for several years , Only she hasn't been to school all day . Grandparents may be for the above reasons , So I didn't send her to school .
After mom married Dad , Learned to grow rice 、 Growing vegetables ……, And learn to compromise .
Dad's classmates are better and do well , The director, the section chief . Mom always asks dad to beg them , In exchange for money and food 、 Children's job opportunities, etc . He didn't open his mouth , Live or die , Mother almost forced him to go with a gun .
Therefore, the two people have constant contradictions .
The first few years of failed Promotion , Dad drinks occasionally . Don't drink, when sober , Do the work at home and in the field , It's good for kids, too , Never beat or scold . Every business trip , Will bring us toys .
As the number of quarrels between the two increases , He drinks more and more often , Almost three meals a day with wine instead of rice , Completely anesthetize yourself with alcohol .
Get drunk and lie in bed , Go to sleep , I don't care about everything at home .
When you're awake , As before . unfortunately , His waking time is getting shorter and shorter .
Mother threw away all the wine in the house , He went to the village shop to drink on credit .
Every time mom sees him coming back from outside, he looks drunk , I don't want to get angry . Think about your child's unfunded tuition , I don't know where to go for the next meal , She was so angry that she pulled him out of bed , Open and scold .
Dad doesn't usually talk back , She scolded very badly and replied a few words . Mom couldn't wake him up , Slap your face directly 、 Scratch your face . Dad told me three or four times , See her don't stop , Will fight back .
We watched in horror , At sea , Want to help but can't help . Just running around , Pull down this, pull down that , beg tearfully ,“ Mom , Don't scold , Stop fighting ！”“ Dad , Stop fighting .”
They ignored , We'll kneel down together , Beg them not to fight . It worked once or twice , In the future, they still have to fight how they should fight .
Such a scene , Almost half of my childhood .
Every time I go out with my father , Mother sat in the kitchen and cried .
Mother sat down in the kitchen crying , Threatened to drink pesticides . I'm very worried , Nervously follow her . Look at her crying , I really want to do something , Not capable enough to do anything . I dare not go away , I'm afraid she'll drink pesticide as soon as she leaves .
Mom will cry , Found me next to , Always say to me gently and sadly ,“ You go , Don't stay here , I'm all right .”
When they fight , We dare not sleep . No matter how sleepy you are, you have to open your eyes , Listen to them .
Afraid of falling asleep , Wake up dead, one or even both , Then we have no parents .
Sleepy enough to keep your eyelids open .
- It's all over .
When I was in high school , Dad died by accident .
At the funeral , If it weren't for a few people's quick eyes and quick hands , Mother has been killed on her father's coffin .
It's all over , quarrel 、 resentment 、 Love . Maybe there's love ？ The love consumed by reality .
I always think , Whose fault is their marriage ？ Time ？ Dad ？ Mom ？ Here we are 6 A child ？
All right , Or are they all wrong .